I’ve spent years rolling rocks out of other people’s paths.
I’ve helped landlords sort out their financial messes, without ever getting paid for it. In actual fact I had a landlord that that after I sold his house, shouted at me “I will never pay you your estate agents Commission because you agents earn to much”, and no matter how much I prayed that God would intercept and reason with him on my behalf. God never helped me to get paid just like with many other clients.
I’ve fought for clients in getting back what was theirs to start with against banks and other major institutions who then refused to pay me or not even had the decency to shake my hand and say thank you at least.
I’ve listened, advised, encouraged, carried, fixed — even when I was barely standing myself.
And I’m tired.
Not in the “I need a holiday” kind of tired.
The deep, soul-level tired that comes from giving water from a well that’s been dry for years because I am just surrounded by Job friends the scavengers.
And what makes Job friends ugly, is you hear their judgements and view points about you as person and you think to yourself. You clowns have no idea of what you are talking about and then as Murphy has it they hit a snag and they come running to you for help and this is where you see the ugly.
I don’t need someone to save me.
I don’t need someone to fix anything.
I just want to meet one person with my ethics, the inner me who sees the rocks in my path and says, “Let me kick this one out of the way because I know how and I can and it doesn’t cost me a thing and in actual fact I would feel better about myself, just like I do.”
Someone who doesn’t only take.
Someone who doesn’t dampen my growth or someone elses so they can keep benefiting.
Someone who understands what it costs to keep showing up when nothing and no one is showing up for you.
I am Job.
I’ve learned how to move rocks for others.
Now I’m quietly hoping — somewhere, somehow — there’s another Job walking this earth who knows how and will move them for me too.
Still building.
Still hoping for reciprocity.
Still here.
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